HI.... actually im tired today... tired pretend im happy as usual.. tired attend my class.. tired with my friends.. and my heart felt so so so dying... and...... today i need to choose.. there will be a trip this weekend to Batu Hampar with my college so i can chill and have fun in there.. but i already promise with someone too this weekend... im going to see her and that moment will give me a truly happiness.. but...yeah...i really miss her right now... 2 days without contact each other... so what should i choose? hey,its ok...i don't want your opinion.. i just asking myself... just like my lecturer said, "we have to communicate with ourself so we can be a good listener and can solve any problem that coming....." Well,after i finished my "kompang" class today,i went home.. Along the way,i talked to myself.. so this was my conversation.. ____________________________________________________________________ |Me : what i've done? |Myself : u should ask yourself |Me : yeaaa...i'm asking you right now! |Myself : maybe she had a problem right now..so u need to give her some time to cool down.. |Me : come on..i'm here ok?i can help by listen to her problem and try to solve.. |Myself : maybe this is her personal problem...so she can't discuss this problem with u.. |Me : maybe...or maybe i do something that make she mad like now..? |Myself : u already asked her about this right? |Me : yes i do..and she told me its nothing.. |Myself : so?believed her and just wait ok? |Me : yea...i really missed her..2 days i try call and text but there's no answer.. |Myself : hey dude! it just 2 days...u waited 2 years to got her love right?so just be patient ok? |Me : ok...i'll try my best..... |Myself : that's my boy...hahahaha... |Me : i want to be the best man for her.. |Myself : then u should try be from now! |Me : but i don't know how... |Myself : ok,first u should be a good muslim... |Me : why? |Myself : if u have strongreligious beliefs,u will be a good man in your life and for her too... |Me : owh...thats right... |Myself : i know u can... |Me : yea...thanks dude... |Myself : we are one right? |Myself : hahaha...yea...i forgot about that...=P |________________________________________________________________
so when i think deep in my heart, i need to be more good than now... in these 2 days i've wait for u...and im gonna wait because i love u deeply,honestly and mostly.. and i choose to waiting for u and will be wait until u ready...=)
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